"Autumn Leaves"
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If you haven't read any of my work before you may not know that I was diagnosed with lung cancer in September of 2002. I went into an agressive treatment program of chemo and radiaiton. I lost 45 lbs. and all my hair. (But must admit I look good bald. lol). I went into remission on my birthday January 17th, 2003. During the treatment I had spent 5 days in ICU from a bout of NO IMMUNE system and had been pretty sick on several occasions. I admit I didn't have it as bad as a lot of people I came into contact with during my treatment but lung cancer tends to really get your attention. I was a heavy smoker and had been for over 40 years. That is really sad isn't it. I was so afraid of dying and I was expecting 2 new grandchildren, a boy Rider born September 17th, 2004 and a little girl who should be here in about 4 weeks or less. I just wanted to live to see them , hold them and gaze upon the faces of my children's children.

In August of 2004 I went for my checkup. I felt very confident and looking forward to yet another clean bill of health and ready to get ready for Christmas and all the grandchildren. When I went in for my scan I was so relaxed and didn't feel as if anything would be wrong. I took my scan and came home, to go back to the doctors in 3 days for the results. Riding to the hosptial I was so happy and relaxed and even told my husband that I felt really good about the scan. When I went into Dr. Crew's office she ask me where Jason (my husband ) was. He's in the lobby I said. She said let me run get him; I KNEW. When he came in she sat down at my side and said " We've got a small problem" Don't know about you but Cancer is never a small problem.

It seemed that my scan had not come back clean after all, there was a small tumor on my left lung (again) and it was luckily only thumbnail sized. The orginial tumor in 2002 was the size of my fist laying on my left lung and heart. So here I go again, started chemo on October 4th and start radiation next week. I have faith in my doctors, myself and in God. I will take it one day at the time and I just wanted to share here with you some of the people who have given of themselves for people like me and who care for us and do all they can do to keep us well. These doctors and nurses are my life's blood and the sense of humor, laughter, love that they exhibit each time I walk into the hospitals is awesome.

Here are a few of them (not all):

Dr. Arastu, my radiation oncologist
Michael, the big boss of radilogy
The ladies at the front desk who always make me smile
Dr. Crews
Holly
Rosemary
Leah

I love these people and I believe they will save me again with God's help.


Kathalise