  Of all the things I shall remember of this day You left, it rained It didn't have to be this way Of all the things I'll forget You didn't even look back as you drove away. Kathalise Martin The snow was waiting when I got here. Like you; beautiful yet when I touched it, melted in my hand. I stood there gazing at its splendor; remembering the coldness of our good-bye. The glistening from the sun on the snow reminded me of the glare from the rearview mirror as I drove away. The dripping of the ice from the limbs reminded me of tears rolling slowly down my face. I looked up into the mountains and thought of the huge ache in my heart so far from you. I was cold, lonely and desperate; then I saw them. Five beautiful deer gracefully climbing the mountains their heads held high; majestic, mysterious and proud. Running from the hunter, only thought to survive. And I knew. I would be all right, for I too am proud, beautiful, mysterious and majestic. I too run from the hunter. My only thought; I must survive. Kathalise Martin Feb., 1998 Original Piece I saw you and I prayed you didn't see me. I didn't know if I could take small talk. So many years, so much water under the bridge. So many loves, lies, and miles that had kept us apart. I saw that you still brushed your hair back out of your eyes as you laughed. I saw that you were older, we all do that. I saw that you still wore the wedding ring That had torn us apart. I saw the easy smile, the dimples that I longed to touch. I looked at you, realizing just how very much I still love you. I turned to walk away and you looked up and you smiled that smile that melts my heart. I see you walking towards me, still looking sexy in those Levi's at 53. Please, oh please don't touch my arm, There it was, the gentle but firm grasp. The color of your eyes were making me dizzy. Ever so softly you said my name I went down in a ton of flames. You said I looked good, "well I thought I looked better when you left me....." I dreaded the words that I knew would come and they did. "I think of you often" said with that husky whisper that drove me wild in the 60's. "Where are you staying?" you ask, I mentally check my pulse My heart is going to come through this blouse. I looked deep into the green pools of desire, and I did it... I brushed your hair out of your eyes and said, "I'm staying home." Kathalise Martin April 14, 2000 The sun glistens on the water and the birds sing in the trees all is right with the world so what is wrong with me? There's a roof over my head and warm clothes to wear there is nothing I need so why do I long to be somewhere. There is love in your eyes and gentleness in your touch; you make me feel so protected yet I yearn for so so much. The winds moan and the moon shines bright in the sky, I lay here beside you and I just want to cry. I know that you love me You prove it everyday So why can't I make him go and stay away. Why do I find my mind wandering to another time and place, a moment where he was all mine. What is wrong with me why can't I just let it be I have all I'll ever need It's just not enough you see. I want that feeling from so long ago I want that touch that set my heart aglow, I want that love that passion burned I want it to be what I have yearned. I want to know that I can still turn a head and hold his eyes I want to be... 16 Kathalise Martin July 24th 2000 |